Skins

So, today is nearly over and I'm feeling a great wave of calm is due to crash over me.

1. Exam's have finished now.
2. My parent's are here
3. New semester on Monday.
4. New classes on Monday.
5. New routine commencing Monday
6. NEW START.

My year is officially starting, and although I'm still healing i have many plans! Starting with getting properly into the swing of things with uni & passing my driving test!

I know i always say this, but i will lose weight, I'm going to work 3 days of swimming into my 5 day uni week. Also, going to cut all the shit out my diet.

Decided that i will only treat myself to materialistic stuff every time i achieve something (let's see if i stick to that, nothing like a bit of retail therapy!); e.g when i finished my exams today i bought these:




I now know what colour to dye my hair haha, after watching the first episode in Skins series 3 with me Jooooooleh! - wish i saw her more, we always have a laugh!

For those of you who don't know, I'm a HUGE fan of Skins, got the first 2 series on DVD haha. A lot of people have been commenting on how shit the new cast are, but to be honest i love them. The contrast in the twins is brilliant, Freddie is an utter ride (love you babes), Cook is proper nuts (like Chris 'cept cheekier), Effy is just effing fab, Pandora's slightly like Cassie 'cept a hell-of-a-lot less annoying! and Naomi(L)! She's going to be a great laugh i reckon. The new series seems a lot crazier and more exciting than the second which really lacked in enticement.

There's a proper HUGE Skins poster in Strathy Union, going to see if i can get it when I'm back on Monday, think I'll get one of those 'University of Strathclyde' hoodies too, REPRESENT!

My new favourite babes:


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Can't wait to not wake up to an alarm tomorrow.

Peace.

2 down, 1 to go!

Exams, one more tomorrow (Quantitative Methods) and it's multiple choice - GET IN!

Social Influence was an absolute reeker, managed to get 3 questions done though, even if they are slightly made up haha. American Politics was a stroll in the park although i think i blabbered on a bit too much, so might get heavy penalised for rambling! Oh well! It's over with now.

In a really good mood today actually! :)

Think it's 'cause I'm really looking forward to tomorrow - last exam, then meeting Kud for lunch/shopping + Jordan as i am his personal stylist! Wonder what i'll buy o0o, think i'll treat myself to a shopping spree in Accessorize(L). I'll drag Kud round all the girlie shops haha! o0o! I can buy the rest of the TWILIGHT books too :D!

Theeeeeeeen coming home and my parents will be here! Looking forward to seeing these cheeky monkeys:




My mum's not a chink haha, just the way she's smiling, not the most photogenic!
That pic was from Christmas day, which was quite possibly the happiest day of my year :)

Then JOOOOOOOOOOOLEH will arrive and we will get CHIPS CHEESE AND PAKORA SAUCE and watch Skiiiiiiinsssss (L) :D

Met my sister on the bus today, and we were talking about uni (she's got a degree in psychology/sociology, works at Killie College) and she said how i should definitely get some sort of teaching qualification after my hons (praying i get that far) as it will make finding a job a hell of a lot easier! Makes me wonder where i'll be in 5 years time, hopefully somewhere that I'm happy and content and successful, i can dream!

I think I'm addicted to this.

Peace.

Hospital

It occurred to me that I'd never actually posted a blog about being in hospital.

Well, aye, new year's day i was taken to A&E with a severely inflamed pilonidal abscess, hurt like a bitch.

You've no idea how uncomfortable it is not being age to sit properly or walk properly, and to get to the point where your body becomes immune to nurofen so you need to take even stronger painkillers!

Probably, in fact, DEFINITELY, one of the worst experiences of my life, scary as fuck too.

Plus old lady banter = shite; but MySpace at my bed (Y)

Had surgery on the 2nd, general anesthetic, don't remember much, was like "i don't think it's kicking... SNOOZE" haha!

Vicky Lauder's an angel - honestly - :p she stayed with me the full time i was awake at hospital. After surgery she helped me ram my piercings back in (top priority) and even went back out and brought me a McDonalds! (had been fasting for like 15 hours!)

That's what you call a true friend! Love you miss! :)

The Lauder's in general actually, fantastic family: from coming to get me on new years day, to putting me up for nearly 3 weeks to holding my hand when i needed support!

Also, woke up to see both my big sisters sitting next to me, first time I'd seen them in years, or spoke to them, and now we're speaking again and rebuilding our relationships! So, even though I've an extra arsehole for the time being, that makes up for it!

My brother also came to visit me with 2 of my nieces (i have 4, and 3 nephews haha!)
Starting to feel part of a family again, & it feels good!

Still seeing the nurse every day, miss Esther (nurse in Irvine) but not long left now i hope! The infection's cleared up, so onwards and upwards eh! :)

Peace.

Barack Obama & Cherry Bakewells

Both exceedingly good.

Watching America's 44th President's inauguration, moving stuff.
A new reporter mentioned how his slogan is "Yes We Can" and how now, within the next 100 days he's going to have to put that into motion and keep to the sky high expectations his followers have of him. Can he? That's the question. I have every faith in him, and i believe that he truly believes in what he intends to do, but with as little experience and foreign knowledge as he has, will it be enough?

"The World has changed, we must change with it".

There is great controversy concerning who will be actually running things, with an essentially Clinton cabinet, will it be Hilary Clinton or Joe Biden reaching out to foreign leaders and such, will Barack be putting his mark on things?

I remember being in first year Modern Studies and talking about America in terms of being a "melting pot" or "a salad bowl" i think that was it, well, i'm hoping it becomes more of a melting pot. I know i'm not black (although, me & Julie both wish we were, especially today! :p) but it honestly put a lump in my throat seeing their reactions to Obama's speech, the 1st African American Black US President, THIS IS HISTORY IN THE MAKING! quite glad something like this has occurred in my lifetime!

- "The Culmination of the Civil Rights movement"

Thankfully, now there's no longer a divided government so therefore, there will hopefully be a much smoother transfer in power, as finally Congress will have a president they will be willing to fully cooperate with!

Hmm, lots of thoughts, got my American Politics exam tomorrow, after my Social Influence exam, got 4 cans of KICK! & i shall hopefully get everything done with a few hours sleep too!

Treated myself to some Cherry Bakewell's today out scumerfield, Mr Kiplings obviously, none of this "own brand" pish!

Realised today that i really don't give a fuck what people think, click the 'delete' button and "byeee" end of. I am who i am eh? Bit like marmite i suppose, you either love me or you hate me! Haha, and i LOVE marmite! (remember the marmite flavoured crisps? mmmm) I don't smell like marmite however, at least i hope not hahaha!

I'd like to think i smell of 'Insolence' (the perfume, although quite fitting don't you think? ;)) Neil commented on it last night saying how nice it was, and how that's how he knew it was me last night, the fact i was jumping about singing and how i smelt haha!

Met Bryan last night! Weird, considering i've been speaking to him every day for what feels like forever, didn't feel like he was a stranger at all! I don't know if he reads this haha, hope not. Hope i meet him a lot more, seems like someone i'd enjoy hanging out with, unlike Napier - what an absolute PRICK! Haha joking, he's alright, got pretty good patter but, must say i don't like the fact he has the ability to rip me to shreds in about 0.2 seconds haha. Good pair of boys though, good addition to my wee group of friends.

Aye last night, ARCHITECTS & MIS SIGS! Wowowoweeewaaah!
:D

Misery Signals were actually epic, and i'm only using that expression because none other fits as well! They opened with 'Set in Motion' (current favourite song!) and ended with The Year Summer Ended in June!!! Don't think anyone was expecting that, didn't even know they were allowed to play it! Amazing though, perfect set.

Architects, ahhhhh, i'd love to see them in a bigger venue! They never have enough people jumping about going nuts, maybe one day Glasgow will pull out the big guns for them, like they deserve, although pretty sure Kud accounted for like 15 folk with how mental he was going :p! "GIT YER TAPS AFF" "She said it, nane o' that gay shit man, am no gay" Ahahaha! EARLY GRAVE was amaaaaazing

"The choices I've made, will lead me, to an early. FUCKING. GRAAAAAAAVE!" *flicks fringe & waves arms*

Stressed, it's 9pm and i've still a good 3 topics to write out before i start revising, these energy drinks better hit me quick, unlike last time when they didn't kick in 'til i went to fucking bed!

Skins of THURSDAY! Wooooo!

Don't think I've anything more to say haha,

Peace.

Set in Motion

Our fears ring true
We're on a march towards the end
Cover my eyes
But I still hear the deafening drums of war
Onward every twisted spoke

Let's make history
Let's make history stop
When there's nothing left
We'll be fed our father's dreams

And I find every time I face this skyline
I picture it in ruins
It's not going to stop

Our fears ring true
We are numbered with the dead
When I finally come apart
Every piece will melt holes into the streets
Onward every twisted spoke

Let's make history
Let's make history stop
When there's nothing left
We'll be fed our father's dreams

We can't let it happen like this
Burn it down
Burn it to the fucking ground
It's not going to stop

x

Twilight

I know i deny it, but don't you ever just want to have your own someone you can just goof out with?

XSUFFYX

So last night, was the first time I've been out since Jen's 21st in December.

& i have to tell you, although it was really weird being out the house by myself, i quickly got over it.

It was Catt's 20th, gettin' aulddd :p

All the team were out, hitting up a boogie in the Cathouse (where else?). Wanted to marry the dj, played some of the best tunes ever, from TBDM, to Every Time I Die, to Glassjaw, to DMX, to BMTH x2! & i swore he played an old Architects tune off 'Nightmares' too!

Which reminds me, MONDAY, yassssssss! :)

Spent most the night bantering with lots of faces i haven't saw in ages (too long)!
& dance with my two favourites Dales and Louise, head running like idiots and wiggling my worms (really they were devil horns) 'cause i'm "straight edge as fuck, x suffy x" - bitches :p

Unfortunately, my dressing just fell to pieces and i was in quite a bit of pain but i still got my crunk on to the 'n' tunes, Dale dislikes that word haha.

Overall, brilliant spending time with brilliant people and although it put me in shit, i don't regret it, was just what i needed after being stuck in hosp/ill/weak etc etc!

Highlights: dancing to slipknot like idiots, seeing Lu & loving how equally nutty we are!, seeing Stuart Wharton for the first time in years, seeing Mandaayy Mandooo Mandee, love that lassie!
:), the creepy leather jacket guy hahaha, boogying with Kud! acting like an utter dafty as per, cuddling Catt x2312445, supermassive black hole with lu!, "God put our mouths on our faces for a reason!", "you know why he's called STONE? because he likes to tone (H)" ahaha etc etc..

So.. back at home now, as i'm well enough to go out then i'm well enough to come home, so i left a letter and flitted back to (s)Cumnock. Lonely already haha, but Ziggy's all snuggled up on the bed and I'm in bed with the leccie blanket on, yeahhh boy.

"to hide inside your loving arms"


Starting to panic about my exams, but only in my head, because i'm quite content sitting here doing nothing instead of studying haha. Thursday night will be good, exams will be over, my parents will be here, Julie will be here with Marmaris & fucking SKINS starts :D!


A few thoughts: this weather better fuck off over to Africa, they need it more than us, BRYAN MCGUIRE WHERE ARE YOU? Quite worried, this is the longest i've gone without talking to him, the prick fucked off to Madrid and i feel like my son has ran away from home, now i'm home i really need to start watching the news again and buying a newspaper every day again, i've missed out on so much important happenings!

Here's some photos:







peace.

And here we go

Well, you know, bulletins just weren't doing it for me anymore so i have chosen to displace my intimate thoughts on yet another form of social network blogging.

So, 2009... hasn't really started out too well for me, as unfortunately, i ended up in hospital and then had surgery. Pilonidal abscess at the bottom of my spine, yeah, um, pretty friggin' (jacqui is attempting to make me replace 'fuck' with 'frig', hmm, it's a work in progress!) sore, still seeing the nurse daily.

Exams, FUCK (frig), not long now, need to get my head down, kinda hard when i get days where i just feel like utter shit but, thankfully the Lauder's are keeping my head above the water - i'm staying with them currently, in Irvine.

On a lighter note, some friends have been absolute angels these past 11 days, extremely grateful.

Anyway bitches, i'm away to snuggle with Ziggy & listen to the Twilight soundtrack.

Peace.